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Hypnagogic Bloom
03:10
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All aboard now, I can’t stop dreaming of you
In the clouds now, I see your stencil in blue
Is it true that you’re here in the morning?
Or are you just a dream that is calling?
I do wish I could make some sense out of you
How the light falls, and sticks like foliage to dew
And the air warm, long before sun comes to view
Is it true that you’re here in the morning?
How do you bring light before dawning?
I choose to wait here in the quiet where both can be true
I have never seen an angel quite like you
Your skin glows white as light falls into you
In these moments between dreams,
My eyelids droop and just the shape of you
Bends forth in shadows barely clear to view
Can we hide in hypnagogic bloom?
Can we stay where reason doesn’t rule?
I don’t need to know if what I see is false or if it’s true
I only need it not to end so soon
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My Father
05:13
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To him you are a child, but you’re a father
Abandoned by your own, adored by the mother
To her you are a man, just like her father
Abandoned by the motherland, find hope as a father
From me you never ran, you only came closer
You gave me all you can, and your pain went unspoken
You learnt to be a man from a man who was broken
From your love for us we know the ways that you have chosen
I want to thank you, my father
Please let me thank you, for loving us in ways he never could
To me you are a friend, one I don’t know yet
Gentle as a breeze, but deep as an ocean
I want to know your mind and go where it wanders
I want to run through time and find you when you were younger so I can say
Thank you, my father (I could say it to you)
Please let me thank you (I could say it to you)
Please let me thank you
Please let me thank you for loving us in ways he never could
Tell me where the time goes
Tell me where your mind goes…
To him you are a child, but you’re a father
Abandoned by your own, adored by the mother
To her you are a man, just like her father
Abandoned by the motherland, find hope as a father
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Buzzing
04:37
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I still remember the brass up to my lips
The tightening of the diaphragm
The spine upright like a soldier on the line
I’d close my eyes and picture that first note
And fix all of my worthiness of name
On whether I could get it close
And then the buzzing, the sound split through the air
I’d scrunch my little fists to thigh
And all I did was start to cry
And then the ages where childhood was behind
And now I’m kissing older boys
And dreaming of a life that wasn’t mine
I’d go to school and wear my pony high
And tighten every lace and strap so I could have an alibi
Both by the evening and the rising of the sun
I crafted every inch of me so they could see I’d won
The way it feeds me to see my mother smile
How can I do enough so she sees herself in her child
How can I hold you? I wish I could
How can I tell you, oh sweet one, you’re doing good?
I promise they saw you, just not how they should
I promise I see you, and you’re doing good
I promise I see you
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My Lover
01:40
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I don’t know if I could come back
‘Cause after all that, you know how I can crack
Like an eggshell under your feet
I have grown like roots from beneath
I climb through the trees, ‘til all I can see
Is the endless, endless light, so warm and bright
Cover me, I want to be free
Honour me, I want to be free
Hold me, my lover is me
Hold me, my lover is me
My lover is me
My lover, my lover
My lover, I love her, I love her
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Good For Me
03:24
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I don’t know you are good for me yet
I just know it feels good with you on my chest
You’re so pretty with your make-up on my bed
Two years younger but always one step ahead
I met you fighting for the world we want to make
You thought I’d missed you, but I couldn’t look away
Eyes filled with hope and fists raised up day after day
And when you walked me home that day
Sydenham Road was lined with lace
I think you could tell better than anyone exactly how I feel
I try to lie but there is nothing you can’t see
I’ve wanted a love like this for years and now you’re here
And so divine that I could cry, but somehow with me there is fear
I don’t know if you are good for me yet
My eyes are lazy from the sleep we cannot get
My school books getting dusty on your bed
Exam on Monday, all day Sunday we’re in bed
I think you could tell better than anyone exactly how I feel
I try to lie but there is nothing you can’t see
I’ve wanted a love like this for years and now you’re here
And so divine that I could cry, but somehow with me there is fear
I’m sorry ‘bout the books you’ve lent I haven’t read yet
I’m sorry ‘bout the mess I leave beside your bed
I just want you to think I’m cute and clever
I’m just not used to pretending that my shit’s together
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NYD
04:03
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Holding myself for so long
I can’t remember noticing when you’re gone
You kept your phone on airplane mode
Just ‘cause you warned me, it don’t mean the hurt won’t stay long
I kept myself within arm’s reach of me
So in a change of the breeze, I can walk back home in peace
And wait until the rain leaves
But on a Monday evening after work is done
I can’t remember the faces of those I love
I swear you kissed me with the power of the sun
But evening has come and I don’t know where memory runs
I walk around with a bounce in my step
Because the loves that I get make me smile through my chest
But somehow just in a number of days
I’m scared it’s all gone away, must be the gloom of the holidays
I must be brave ‘cause it’s the first day of the year
And I’ll say I miss you my dear, but if I’m honest with the fear
I know it’s me I’m really missing here
And in the new year in the room I first made love
With all the pictures of my life hanging above
I feel a pain in places I can’t make sense of
But I know I’ll find my way home before too long
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